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I find that I don't have much to say about anything at all any more -- but there was a time when I had quite a lot to say about everything that came along. My son -- my webmaster -- asked me to save some of my pithier sayings so we could incorporate a quote a day on the site. I saved some stuff but the change in the site never happened. So since I have all these bits and pieces sitting around that I may or may not even agree with any more, I am going to toss them out here as a sort of a last grand RANT! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You get what you think about whether you like it or not -- SO THINK ABOUT THINGS YOU LIKE!!!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

My path actually started changing dramatically when I started noticing my anger in traffic. Why I should blow all my circuits because someone does something inconsiderate in a snarl of traffic I have no idea. But that is what I found myself doing -- all the time. I started just by noticing. After two weeks I found myself saying, "that used to make me angry. How bazaar that I should have let my blood pressure go through the roof because of someone else's behavior." The one thing, my anger, really had nothing to do with the other person and how they were driving, but everything to do with me. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

When you can communicate with your own heart you will have no trouble communicating with all that is because it is ALL in your heart. That IS your connection. This is why I am not at all "how to" about animal communication. I am "how to" about communicating with yourself. You are IT. It is all there. All you need to do is shut up long enough to feel it move through you. That's why all I really talk about is meditation and grounding. That's how you find the stillness that let's who you are FIND YOU. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I "got" once that the universe runs on a binary system pulsating on off on off or 0 1 0 1. What we see is the "on" and the rest of all that is, is the "off". There is nothing holding this "reality" but our ideas of "how things are" individually and collectively. So the only reason I come "on" looking the same as always is because that is what I expect -- deeply. If I really wanted to, and had zero attachment to the past and this body, I could just as easily come "on" as a wolf! . The same is true for the collective consciousness. That's why it's important to expect things to improve. Things will change depending on which ideas reach critical mass. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

This is the time to say STOP to the games we play with ourselves and get on with creating a new life and a new world. We have choice! We can wallow in our old shit or we can take responsibility for our own feelings and change our mind about what feelings we invite into our minds for cookies and milk. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

No one else has anything to do with what feelings you live with. It is your choice how to feel. Bad stuff happens. Bad stuff happens to good people. The world is a mess. Care to dwell on that? I would rather dwell on what I can do with my little life that may have some sort of positive influence. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

To BE? or Not To Be. That IS the question. That is the choice you make every time you entertain a thought in your mind. This is unfamiliar. It takes some getting used to, but just keep making choices consciously and soon it becomes second nature to throw out the crap and entertain the gold. Just decide. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

If I can talk with an Iguana and find myself feeling respect, compassion and love, I can talk with any human and find something there that I have respect, compassion and love for. That, to me, is the real miracle and the ultimate goal. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

When you give up harboring negativity, The Universe, Source, God, Life Force, call it what you like, will rush to you with it's creative gifts -- will rush THROUGH you as your individual expression comes to fruition. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Have you ever thought you would like to be present at your own funeral? Have you ever thought you would like to be present in your own life?!!! If you attend to the latter maybe the former will be worth attending. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Let the energy which creates worlds flow through you. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

It has always bewildered me that even though it is always said that God is omnipresent, we can still insist that he is elsewhere. How can omnipresence exclude you and me? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Ain't Life Grand!!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You are the ONE you've been waiting for! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

We experience pain (and create it around us) in direct proportion to the distance we travel from, or are cut off from, God/Source/All That Is. My work is to clarify my connection. It is my only work. My life is just an expression of how I'm doing with that work. It is all so very simple. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Forgiveness is just an intellectual exercise unless you have ventured deeply into the pool of oneness. Once you have done that you don't need to forgive -- don't even need a word for it -- it is a non concept -- not needed. You are forgiveness already. And when you have gone and spent time in that core of oneness you live your life to help others get there without the need of slogans and rules and comandments admonishing you to do it. You are it. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

It's "the vision thing". Whether you are going for just the right phrasing of a musical passage or just the right person to share your life with or the next best career move, it is all about conscious creation through imagining what it is you want with all the vivid color and intense emotion that goes into the best of passionate daydreams. Be a child again, make up your story and live it till you get it. Really. Kids know all about this stuff but then we tell them to grow up and face reality. Reality being what they observe around them. Go ahead, face reality and get more of the same. Or imagine life as you want it to be and create it. Your choice. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

My heart was broken open in my first animal communication class by a feral cat I have never met in person. Her name is Goldie and I will always be grateful. She gave me her heartache (after three months of cowering in a crate she came out that day into a new life) and with the help of a friend who is an energy healer extraordinaire I was able to banish that ache as well as my own. After 57 years of cowering in my crate I came out the next morning into a new life. Sometimes the beauty of things just makes me cry. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I used to think I was so creative and such an original thinker until I found to my dismay that my very own original idea for a home decorating project showed up in a prominent home decorating magazine the next month!!! Shook my little world. That was 30 years ago and since then I have understood that "truth", let's say the truth of the month as it is always in motion, is in the ethers! We breathe it in and sometimes we spout it out and claim it as our very own, when the truth is, all we have to do is breathe! But it is still nice to share the experience. How many lightworkers does it take to spout the obvious? As many as there are! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

To be? Or not to be.

There was a time when men met to rampage through the halls of life raping and pillaging and having a marvelous time of it. That time is over. The last echoes of that time are fading yet many try to carry on as if nothing has changed. There will be dismay for those who can not see that a new time has come and that they are the ones who have become the endangered species. Ha Ha's about the spotted owl come settling round their ears as their deeds die not with a bang but the infamous whimper.

Celebrate this passing! It is time to create a new earth. We start with nothing but the ruins of this previous civilization, not washed and scoured as was Atlantis. Still the detris all around in heaps and hollow monuments remain to remind us of our ruin. But this too will pass. Hollow shells left by past masters of brutality can be consecrated to new purpose and thus transformed to fit a gentler age. The new play is cast, the audience awaits. The playwrights and directors have fallen away to leave the cast to play as they would like. How shall we go brave troubadours? Shall we play light or dark, cunning or creative, venture to heights unimaginable or to old standby scripts of torture and longing? How shall we go? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You who are so proud of your intellects -- get out of your heads and into your hearts -- get out of no-where into the now-here. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

We are God so how can we be better than a rock? Since we are one, you, me, the rock, of course none is better than the other. We are unique expressions though. The rocks around here (Grand Canyon Country) are pretty damned blatant with how spectacular they are. We can learn something from these rocks. Nurse at the great mothers breast isn't just a metaphor. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"This is who I am!!! accept it and love me." Beautifully defined people pulling themselves up by definitions, feeling devastated when they fall. Such a tragedy. Their definitions fell. Tut tut. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I am lonesome for a world full of people who have set aside the struggle of the facade and accepted the simplicity of being. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

The feeling of being unworthy is a self imposed judgement. No one else can make that judgment for us. Others may come in and agree whole heartedly with this judgement, thus further fortifying our view, but the judgement itself is self imposed. So the solution appears to be to come to love ourselves unconditionally. We can say we love nature and we certianly love our pets, but do we love that part of ourselves that is all too nature driven -- our own bodies, our own instincts, our own desires, our own less than perfect minds? Until we do, loving our neighbor as ourselves won't lead to anything much different than what we see on the news now. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

There is no-thing and to continue to get emotional about the play we are playing -- plays into the play, if you see what I mean. There is energy -- there is only energy. We shape that (in our lives here and now) according to where and how we focus our attention. We are creators and that is what we do, with or without consciousness of what we do. Let's just say the universal "all that is" energy is called love. Personally I think all the romantic and trivial connotations surrounding that word make it far less than adequate to the task we are assigning it as the energy of all that is, but for now let's call it love. So we come from love and we return to love and in the meantime we have adventures. We create this and that individually and all together. That is what we do. There is no judgment on that. Good bad right wrong black white -- even grey have no value. There is love and there is love and there is the play we create within that. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

The reason those who "know" don't say, is that when you see truth is no-thing, there isn't any-thing left to speak of really. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

There is a point at which everything changes and the struggle disappears and life IS grand and you actually DO create your reality the way you choose it to be. It's not a fairy tale or denial or dancing in the 5th demention. It's solid and real and grounded in your body -- real. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

What I see a lot of is the reluctance to give up the hard way for the true way, partly because of uncertainty but a lot, I expect, from the reliance on our poor brains (our "intelligence") and the interest in using all that we "know" in forming complex and fascinating puzzles in explanation of truth as we see it. There seems to be so much enjoyment in mulling it over and over and over... People so enjoy doing acrobatic intellectual feats with concepts that are incredibly interesting, sometimes mind boggling but never quite enough to drive them out of their minds -- which is what is necessary to find a life in All That Is. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

In BEING there are no questions. In BEING you ARE the answer. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Consider the concept that your mind is not within your body, but that your body is within your mind. Play with it and see where it takes you. Change your mind and you change all that is within it. ALL that is within it. Once we make this shift in understanding, or focus, the power it gives us has to be greater than we can possibly comprehend at this stage of our becoming. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

There is oneness or not. It's that simple. All is one or all is divided. Wholeness or pieces. In your heart there is oneness. In your mind there is not. From there you can choose your reality. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Mind with a big M is that "other mind" and is accessed through the heart or body. Little mind is brain stuff. Stuff you have learned from a book -- good bad right wrong war peace black white sinner saint -- that stuff, divisive stuff. Small m mind is good for the laundry list. Without it you wouldn't be able to drive a car or cook a meal. It's useful in physical reality and we need to do a bit of that m stuff just to get around. The problem is we have just spent too much time using it for way bigger stuff than it was intended for, like attempting to find truth and beauty and oneness. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Lucid dreaming has become a sort of approach to life for me, as in, Life is But a Dream -- let's get lucid. Now, when I get into circumstances I really don't like, I remind myself I am in control of how I behave and feel and that I can create the next moment precisely the way I would remind myself in a dream that I don't have to go along with a nightmare. It's my dream and I can take it where ever I like. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

As we are one, we are everyone from every time. We will remember those lives which help us explain ourselves to ourselves in the present moment. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Why do they DO that? Why can't they &???!!! Why is he such a&???!!! Generally the personal why questions at least imply that some of us here on planet earth just aren't getting it, if not stating outright stupidity or evil. But I have to say, until we can honor each journey as perfect, we can not truly honor our own. There is no "why" to consider. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You really don't have a clue what will happen from one moment to the next unless you are creating more of the same. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

After a scene with my neighbor in which he threatened to kill my dog, I have been reminded again, after some inner work about it, that we are all just here to help each other to play this game we play. The stuff and people and situations that seem bad are only that by our own judgment. Same with the good stuff -- just a judgment -- and we know in the midst of judging something good or bad that the judgment is false. But we ignore that little voice that is saying, "you are just pretending this" and we generally go ahead and act on the pretense. At the end of the day its all just cowboys and Indians. What a hoot! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

By saving ourselves we will save each other. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I am wholeness living within wholeness, period. And when I deviate from that truth in thought, word or deed, I suffer and perpetuate suffering, period. This is the simple truth. It always has been. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Those who ask, "what do you do for fun" aren't doing their lives right. Life is what we do for fun! My gosh! Disney world is just an imitation. And the Sims! Ha! That's what we are doing already. Funny how we make little games that are just like the big game and call the little games fun and the big game "a veil of tears" :lol: :lol: :lol: Cracks me up. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Fear feeds fear. When you feel it coming on, even just the slightest twinge -- a catch in your breath, a twist in your gut, whatever your first sign of fear is, STOP!!! Yell STOP!!! And stop. Then replace the fear with the wholeness of all that is. Picture this in what ever way works for you. Once you begin to stop and become aware of the first twinges of fear and don't allow yourself to be seduced by it (yes folks we do love a bit of a wallow) you will start to master your life. It is really like giving up any bad habit -- stop doing the habitual behavior and replace it with another prefered behavior. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

We ARE one and we love each other deeply and unconditionally. We ARE the body of what we in the west generally refer to as God. Dogs understand this. It is why we love dogs.

Values

8/21/05

My dog Alfie, is just back home after major surgery. Long story short, his spleen got in a twist. Blood flowed in but not out so it just kept engorging. By the time it was removed it weighed 8 lbs. That's at least 6 or 7 pounds more than his normal spleen would weigh. I couldn't believe he lived long enough for us to get help. There are no resources for human care of that level here where I live, let alone animal care. We had to travel to Salt Lake City, a five hour drive, to get to the kind of facility needed to diagnose and treat his problem.

My son and his family live in Salt Lake so I was able to stay with them during the couple of days we were there. It was nice to be with family during that very trying time. My son though, thought I was crazy to spend $4,000 on surgery for my dog. He said that at some point you just need to give them a hug and let them go. And actually I agree with him in a way. I see animals go through a lot of pain and suffering for the sake of their owners who, for whatever reasons, want to prolong their life beyond what would be natural. I see people doing this for all sorts of reasons, some of which are not entirely healthy, guilt, a show of goodness, fear of death, etc. I get a little angry when someone puts their beloved pet through the pain of extraordinary care to prolong their life by 6 months or a year. I just don't think it's fair to the animal to do that. I feel exactly the same about humans, but humans can make their own decisions about their own pain and suffering. Most of us, when we are healthy, say, if it comes to that, just shoot me, or words to that effect, but when it comes down to the wire, most opt for pretty extraordinary measures to prolong their lives. Our error with treating our animals is that we think they are feeling about life and death the way we do. Since we are mostly death phobic we just naturally transfer that feeling to our animals. Animals though, do not have a problem with death. Life and death is pretty much the same to them. They have an innate understanding of the movement between being in a physical state and being in a non physical state. This movement is as natural as breathing and animals simply understand this and so have none of our issues surrounding death. Pets do though, pick up our fears in this regard and can get a bit crazy right along with us but it is not the deep seated fear of death and longing for more life regardless of quality that we have.

Given all of this I didn't hesitate for a moment in treating Alfie. He is a young dog and in vigorous good health aside from this internal accident that occurred. He is my best friend. There was a seventy to eighty percent chance of his full recovery and excellent quality of life beyond the surgery. The discomfort is less after the surgery than it was before and it will be over once he has fully recovered in a week or so. I had the money (at least on the horizon) and was grateful for that. There have been plenty of times in my life that I couldn't have done this and I would have had no choice but to put him out of his misery. That would have devastated me. No surgery was going to happen until the money for the worst case scenario expense-wise was guaranteed. As it was, money showing up in three weeks wasn't good enough and I had to go through plenty of hoops to get a loan. Have you ever tried to scare up $4000 in an hour?

So this brings us to values. The animal hospital is in the position of being forced to require money up front for obvious reasons. If they did business any other way they wouldn't be in business for long then no one would be helped at all. But while I was scrambling to get a loan on such short notice it was just so ugly to see the almighty dollar taking precedence over a living breathing life. Yes I made a scene. It felt good. I'm not given to high drama but sometimes it just helps to stomp your feet and have a tantrum. As for my son's observation about $4000 vs. Alfie's life, all I can say is, would that money make me happier than Alfie does? Do we really think money is so wonderful that as little as $4000 can give us that warm fuzzy feeling that comes of receiving unconditional love on a daily basis year after year? Is having $4000 in the bank really worth losing your best friend? My son can look at it differently since he has 5 kids and the dog is really at the bottom of the totem pole in his family, but for my life, to which Alfie has contributed so much (see Best Friend Best Teacher) there is really no question where my value lies.

Taking Responsibility

12/23/2004

If you have gotten into Abraham-Hicks at all you know that the gist of the teachings are that the MOST IMPORTANT THING is to FEEL GOOD. It's all about raising your vibration and in doing so raising the vibration of all in your circle of influence. I believe this. It is the theme I have been basing my life on for quite some time. I keep taking more and more responsibility for my own well being. I keep encouraging others to do the same. As with all truth this concept is simplicity itself.

When I hear somebody going on about their problems I say, let me ask a few questions. Are you meditating regularly? Are you eating nourishing food? Are you exercising on a regular basis? Have you cleared your physical space so it feels open and airy and light? Are you contemplating the birds and the bees and the flowers and the trees? Are you treating yourself as you would like to be treated by a loved one? Are you knowing that you are "all that is" in all time and all space but only experiencing this sliver of it in this moment? Are you remembering that life is but a dream and that you can be lucid within it?

Then I suggest they work with all of the above before we talk about their problems. This is why I will never really thrive as a Life Coach. If you want to thrive as a Life Coach you have to leave people with at least a few problems!

There is still the problem though of honestly taking responsibility for your own well being. It can be tough. I can't say I have all of the above going all at the same time ever! I have made giant strides compared to how I lived in my reckless youth (I wouldn't take any of it back for the world:-) but I have yet to pull the whole list together. Things just have a way of sliding. And when things slide, you may have noticed, it's always in a downward direction. But I do get better at incorporating all of the above more and more and I feel better and better all the time. I'm just writing this because I have to keep reminding myself that I am responsible for my life and that what I do today matters.

Interest In Negativity

It's peculiar to me that so many people are interested in negativity. I participate in a lightworker online forum and when someone brings up negativity and how to deal with it the thread goes on forever with more contributors to the discussion than any other topic ever gets. When someone tells everybody about their problems people swarm to that person like bees to honey with sympathy and love and light, literally stroking that problem till you can hear it purr.

We are just so fascinated with our negativity. We talk about it we work with it we devise therapies to deal with it we suffer with it we watch it in movies and on television AND we create it all the time by being so fascinated with it.

I'm here to say, if you are fascinated with negativity in yourself and others you will get lots of it to work with because your thoughts create your reality. The universe gives you what you think about. What a powerful gift! How powerfully we misuse that gift.

I HAVE learned lot's of methods and therapies for dealing with negativity and I could name quite a few tricks that seem to work for awhile, but in the end I find that they all just feed the beast. If you ask me how to deal with a problem I will say, starve it to death! Think about what you WANT, not what you don’t want. It’s just a habit this business of entertaining the enemy! If you need help at all, you simply need help in overcoming a bad habit. Habits are just habits – you can get over them.

Try using this little mantra -- I am the creator -- I am the creation.

This may help you live in your own integrity, finding your own way and dealing with whatever other people and situations come your way. Are you going to entertain negativity in your brain or are you going to let it starve at the door while you entertain creativity, abundance, right work, vigorous good health, and brilliant clarity. It is your choice. You needn't allow thoughts you don't like to sit back in your head, put up their feet and demand a beer! You have a choice of whom and what to allow into your life! YOU are the creator -- YOU are the creation. There is no room for blame in this mantra, and lots of room for forgiveness.

When you give up harboring negativity, The Universe, Source, God, Life Force, call it what you like, will rush to you with it’s creative gifts -- will rush THROUGH you as your individual expression comes to fruition.

If I am ever to be good for anything it will be helping people focus on what makes them feel good and to starve the negative to death through total lack of attention. So until further notice I will be focusing on making the choice of dwelling on what I want to create. If you would like to dwell on what you want to create too – wow! We can grow it exponentially whether we are together or never meet. Isn’t that wonderful!!!

Dear Potential Houseguest,

I love you and welcome you to stay a night or two or even three in my home. Before your visit I would just like you to be aware of a few house rules that have been implemented in hindsight.

Most of us don't allow anyone to smoke in our homes, that is a given. There are a few other pollutants I don't allow in my home that I would like you to be aware of.

Negativity -- if you have anything bad to say about a fellow human or fellow humans or enjoy "ain't it awful" chat, or have anything negative to say about my cooking, my home, my dog, my cats, or any thing else at all, I will invite you to go outside and talk about it with the trees all you like.

Judgmental attitudes -- If you talk, for instance, about disease in any way that indicates it is a bad thing and needs to be cured and/or catered to in any way other than forcing you to face your own issues, you can go talk to the trees about that as well. The same applies to war and homelessness and well, the list is very long. Just understand that Judge Not is the rule.

I find many people have terrible habits that are in fact dangerous carcinogens that can pollute any space just as surely as second hand smoke. If you have any of these habits that is fine. I will fight to let you express yourself in any way you see fit. I do reserve the right however, to ask you to do it outside during your visit.

Thanks for being considerate.

Trish

August 2004

A river runs through it alright!

Wow!!! it's true what they said about flash floods through my property. I just had a 30 ft. wide FAST river gushing through. Wheeeee. Thunder, lighting, rain just pissing down then hail! Jeezzz. It all went where we designed it to go -- whoosh. God it was exciting. You really wouldn't want to be in the way of that river. There was actually white water. Incredible! God I love the desert.

That was written to friends while I was still HIGH from the experience. Unfortunately I didn't have charged batteries in my camera when it was so exciting, but here are a few flood forms 3 days later.

This is it's exit from my property. I think when it was at full flow it was about 3 feet deep here.

This is the left fork of the river further up on the property.

This is the right fork viewed from my back deck.

This is a little tributary whose flow was blocked by the main river. Just after the flood let up a bit I nearly got eaten by quick sand/mud here. Now Alfie is checking it's stability.

Wow. I thought I told you about my flood in December but I guess not -- don't see it here. December 23rd AND 24th I was flooded -- in the house flooded. That was when I still lived on the beach. So the beach was in front of my house and finger canals behind for salt water access. With high tides and heavy rains the houses there just flood. So I had that to deal with as well as putting my house on the market to sell AND Christmas company. It was challenging.

When I fell in love with this property on th